Yesterday I turned 50. Doesn't feel so bad I guess. Although my body is like 80 in my head I'm still 20. Wish I could turn the clock back and start over, get more accomplished than what I've done. I've wasted so much of my life. I try to compensate more through church but my medical problem hinders even that. Wish I could sing in the choir, but there's always a chance of having an attack in the middle of everything, that would sure show up. Still there's a chance I guess.
